My 26th birthday is next weekend. Another year older? Yes. Another year wiser? Debatable. But then again as a student of life, I usually consider everything a learning experience. My mom used to tell me everything happens for a reason, and as I reflect on this past year, I can’t help but think towards the future. The question? What kind of man do I want to be? Some might even say, this is a revelation in my own personal branding. Well, there’s a reason behind these reflections.

Growing up, I always thought I was more in touch with my emotions. I had plenty of avenues to express them. I wrote constantly, I acted in school plays, and I had a great support system of loved ones. My mom is a rockstar. But I’ve come to realize that as I grew up, I even became subject to Toxic Masculinity, a term used to describe socially-constructed ideas of what it means to be a man. Traits that are praised in men, but squashed for women. They’re not always positive either. Territorial, sexual, and violent to just name a few.

As a young gay man, I always felt I wasn’t living up to the idea of masculinity. I realized life events changed my personality. I was bullied constantly in middle school. I grew more aggressive in high school and college because I was navigating my own sexuality and self-worth. I even became stoic once I graduated college, only sharing my feelings with a select few. I developed low self-esteem, something that was new to me. It was as if the sensitive, kind, and ambitious young man I once was changed.

Of course, things got better. I met my boyfriend. In the past two years, he’s challenged me to dive deep into my emotions and to be comfortable in my own skin. As he says constantly, “just be you.” As I started breaking down these barriers, I decided to explore the idea of masculinity further.

I recently picked up Lewis Howes‘ book, The Mask of Masculinity, because Matt McGorry and Justin Baldoni, two actors and activists I admire, both recommended the self-help book on social media. By the way, if you’re not following the hashtag #McGReads, you totally should. You won’t regret McGorry’s recommendations. So when I purchased Howes’ book, I didn’t know what to expect. Surprisingly, it taught me a few things about myself.

Howes helps you remove the masks you hide behind. These masks, whether they be the stoic, aggressive, joker, or even the know-it-all, deter you from building relationships and living authentically. As Howes writes in his book, “…masculinity is a bogus concept. You don’t need to worry about being ‘a man’ or ‘the man’ or anything like that. Don’t pretend to be anything or anyone except who you actually are.” Words to live by.

Some personal branding goals! Any personal growth creates an opportunity to market yourself, right? So, my goal for 26 is to live authentically and to slowly remove my own masks. Why should I fit into society’s standards of what it means to be a man? My goal is to continue building on my relationships, and by doing so, giving more of myself over to others, as Howes suggests. My goal is to live life to the fullest by embracing my vulnerability and to trust the people around me. My goal is to be a better human being.

I applaud Lewis Howes for writing such a thoughtful and enjoyable book. I hope the book continues to help men around the world embrace their vulnerability and to create deep relationships with others. I also applaud Justin Baldoni’s new show, Man Enough, a social movement that explores traditional masculinity in America. And of course, I thank all the men I admire, who continue to revolutionize the way we think about masculinity.
Cheers.






























